September 9 marked 8 months of cancer treatment, and on September 10 I was in the Adirondack mountains with my sweetheart, and my beloved. I always feel closer to God, to myself, to the truth, to what is important, in those mountains. The clear air, and the incredible beauty, restores my perspective and realigns my mind, body and spirit. my sweet spot... The rock I am perched on in the photo, is my sweet spot. When I go to a peaceful place in meditation, to feel closer to the divine, this is the place I visualize. I make the climb each year during our time at Big Moose. I didn't think I would physically be able to get up the hill this year, and it took a great deal of effort. But sitting up there, taking in the view, made me realize that the climb up was a perfect analogy for the journey I have been on. strength, determination and faith... Each person's journey through cancer is intentionally a unique body, mind and spiritual experience. But one thing is the same, the journey is hard. It takes you to the edge, and strips you of all you think you know, forever changing you. It takes incredible strength, determination and faith, and when I ran out, you gave me more. You filled me up with your cards, emails, flowers, text messages, phone calls and visits. Thank you for holding me all these months. Thank you for listening to my fears and my tears, and thank you for believing in my capacity to take on this journey. moving back into my body... People ask me now, "Are you done? Is it over?" and I'm not quite sure what to say. If you have gone through your own cancer journey you understand it is never really over. After 4 months of chemo, 2 surgeries, and 6 weeks of radiation I finally feel like I am moving back into my body. Unfortunately my prognosis carries with it a higher risk of reoccurrence than we hoped for. I am doing everything I can to mitigate that risk and I want to acknowledge some of the healers that are an integral part of my recovery. Sarah Costonis, Shura Gat, Vladimir Bobcoff, Andrea Leonard, you showered me with love and grace, and I will forever be grateful to you for helping my mind, body and spirit team unite in healing. feel more like myself... During treatment a friend asked me what I was most looking forward to getting back to. My answer was my practice, taking walks, being able to be in my body again. It is so great to feel like I want to take a morning walk, or get on my mat to start my day. I feel my energy returning, my creative juices flowing, and I am starting to feel more like myself! returning, remembering, reflecting I feel like I am returning after a long battle, remembering what occurred, and reflecting on who I am now, and what is most important to me as I step into the next chapter. The path I have found through the yoga practice, and my work with the chakras, inspired me through some of the toughest terrain. I am so grateful that God has shown me the way back to myself and this inspiring work. offering grace... As I said before, we never know what God will put in our path, but whatever it is, may we find a way to offer ourselves, and each other grace. The grace of compassion and support, strength and resiliency, loving vibes and faith to take us to the other side, no matter the outcome of this chapter in the story of our evolution.
